I really liked that we had to write letters to ourselves today that we will read six months into our term of service, I really liked telling myself what I think now and asking myself what will happen with all sorts of different things later. What I liked mostly was seeing that most of these predictions or questions about the future, I really do have power how those things turn out. Most of those things, I have agency in. And this is a really exciting thought. Yes I mean I always know this, but I am always living so much in the future in my head that I miss this critical component, that there is a clear bridging between now and then, that there are steps to getting there and those steps are the ones I will be taking all along the way. And I loved this thought so much. And I was filled with happy montages set to deepbellygirlsinging, of my cowboyclomping to success, in all the millions of ways I hope to do right and make good and be happy and grow. And like how Sara was all happy and highIThink and was telling about the episode of Dawsons Creek she was watching and how CJ and Jen just broke up and Pacey and Joey just got back together and there is this relationship just beginning and there is this relationship just ending and both ways its just great in some way its just fine.

I am full of stars.