April 17 2010. "its insane whats happened and most of it I never would have planned for."


Canceled my interview for the arts organization in St. Paul I had for Tuesday. I am going to the island whether they will have me or not. Mostly, it is the thick gray air I imagine on the tide break. The pink polka dot rain boots I will tromp in through the forest. The purple sea stars I will perch on my palms and knee caps as I smile into the gauzy cloud lightness.
I want to lie at the island in a neon muscle shirt,
hear the Loons call and smoke a Marlboro 27,
listen to the giggles of couples wrongly matched.

Stretching out between the grass and sand, the deep scar on my left knee sparkles with the fireflies. I want it all.
There is a rumble of a Toyota with too many bumper stickers, a Twins game has been won(!) and a radio cackles happy(#). Scratchy face. Flannel. Closer and sooner. Beeping of an automated lock. Thudding of secret kind of secret, a song only you and I know the words to. PLANNING. By the light of the full moon,
My love threatens to drown me in the lake




March 27 2010
Somwehere Out There.
"I told you your dreams would come true."

Dont Start Shaking.
April 2005.
Et Al.

august 7th 2005
"snippitysnap dot diaryland dot come"
come and come again.

[[cake with the most boyfriends v.II]]

In honor of Sweet Tooths (late? Deceased?) Mix Tape Club- I pronounce (straight from the plains of Montana/NorthDakota/backseat of a Chevrolet Rental)the ultimate SoundTrack: Oly I Love You.

{prelude}
Neutral Milk Hotel In the Aeroplane Over the Sea ("The King of Carrot Flowers") which I was into fanatically all about at about the time my high school self spilling all over k108- where The Cure/Love Cats and Sergio Mendez were all I remember - it was this and Alanis Morisette Greatest Hits or something that I was playing as my freshly hickeyed hungover teenqueendom poured into airport back to Shoreview quite certain of where life was taking me
(from the mix i sent before i ever came)
Nothing Compares 2 U/Sinead OConner
Section 12: Hold Me Now/Polyphonic Spree
Free To Be You and Me/Marlo Thomas
also the MeanGirlz mix: My Coco/StellaStarr!# , Call on Me/Eric Prydz, Im Bossy Kelis and the mix Graham made me: Pussy Control, Mr Blue Sky/ELO, Walking on Broken Glass/Annie Lenox

[dudezone l k107]
I Would Do Anything for Love/MeatLoaf
That American Classics record, whatever it was, we overplayed that shit
Billion Dollar Babies/Alice Cooperwhole phenom album but esp Hello Hooray
Dont Fear the Reaper
PURPLE RAIN - fanatacism begins
Mercedes Benz/Janis, Jolene/Dolly - from the mix tape Am made to wish everyone off but especially for girlstomps all around the world;
[champshack l orcas island]
entering Around the World in A Day and 1999phases. Paisley Park plays in the background of all island time. Lets Pretend We're Married along with all wooden floors of the eastside.
Brass in Pocket/the Pretenders

([champshack part II])
Dirty Mind and Sign O the Times I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man
the Hairspray soundtrack I am not sure why
[stump pt 1]
Tarzan and Jane/TOY BOX
all party songs associated with PostBreakUpCrew (SoulaBoy Crank That)
Bikini Kill EP thats right I got all into the OlyClassics
[DUGOUT l Crew UP l Gatewayz l ETC]
Hounds of Love/Kate Bush
Temptation/New Order
Heat of the Moment/Asia
Lost on the Supermarket / The Clash
Lil Wayne "Tha Carter III" - all that would play in Meghan's Car
Selena "Unforgettable", "The Essential Dolly Parton", Fergie "The Dutchess", and Radio KYA The Sweetest Music Ever Made - all that would play in our apartment
Thriller/Michael Jackson - Gateways Theme
that video of that leonard cohen song that Scott ways always trying to Thrive everyone on that I cannot find right now WHAT IS IT the one with all the pillars
Ditty/Paper Boy
Common People/Pulp
[Hamms Island]
My So Called Life Theme Song
Blink 182 BUDDHA/Dude Ranch/CHESHIRE CAT, -sometimes, you go back to your roots
[a place like HERE]
Do You Remember the First Time/Pulp
Yacht/PsychicCity

Deep In The Heart of Texas /Patriotic Songs of America
Nausea/X
Grattilium whatever their album is
PITTED YOUTH duh
"Beehive Yourself" mix I made in High School which plays in the Welcome ROom day in day out contains filched pieces from the soundtracks of Stand By Me, Now and Then, and My Girl
[and inthe last lights of leaving:]
a mix I made for Will in highschool
and have tried to reconstruct
Black & White/3 Dog Night
Peace Train, Where do the Children Play, Morning has Broken/yusuf of course
and Somewhere Over the Rainbow/ the Israel K version

[OHHH And Most Importantly] which could never be categorized by place nor period-
The Hail Seizures who appeared mishappenly playing Oweek at the FreshmanDorms in fallof 2006 and who have popped up spritefully in all good niches of time
The Dawsons Creek Theme Song (Paula Cole's I Dont Want to Wait) - which of course has been the thread of life in all that I do and how, where, etcetera-
and WILL YOU BE THERE/MICHAEL JACKSON - the Free Willy song which as it turns out leads my life in all directions and plays every time I am at the bow of a ferry.

["supersonic"]
i leave on this note-


as is remains
a Work in Progress

"WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF?"

RUNNING

i appreciate that scooter recounts tales of jogging, for i am about to share one, too.

i've been running a lot lately, my rule of thumb is to run until i get too tired to run anymore, and then i stop. i live right beside the wetlands of the eastside, where salmonberries and lemonbalm and nettles grow like it's going out of style. thankfully the skunk cabbage went out of style; those enormous armpit-smelling, poisonous green leaves finally sunk beneath the overgrowth of the meadow that seemed to have replace what wetland i thought was

anyway, i was jogging the other day, round 3 pm and a huge snowy-gray owl flew right through the trees in front of me. i couldn't believe it was real, don't snowy-gray owls only come out at night? there she was, big as a kite, flying gracefully from one tree to the next. didn't think too much more of it after that.

a few days later i'm walking to the trail entrance and there's a buck standing right at the entrance, staring at me. he is still, not moving even as i get about 20 or 30 feet away. a biker rolls by me and asks if i know where the entrance to the wetland trail is. i point ahead and smile. he says thank you. he gets off his bike and heads towards it. the buck has not moved or stopped staring at me. i ask do you see that? he says no. i ask are you kidding? he looks confused. we walk closer to until we are literally 10 feet away and he says, oh, yeah, it's mating season. the buck looks through me as though he's on fire and turns around and disappears. i start running down the path because i don't want to trip out on bike bro anymore

these lasts weeks in olympia are filled with all this detached and heavy animal spirit shit, i don't really know what to make of any of it except my head is pretty clear and i'm going to miss those stinky wetlands a lot

Friendly Grove

Went to a great summer BBQ at Friendly Grove on the eastside lastnight. All the friends were there grilling and skating. It was a great way to round of the day spent working at SUBWAY. But making sandwiches has it's perks as well. Today I have to work again and I am feeling like I spend to much time eating bad meat. Will summer ever really get here? I keep pushing it and it just won't happen!

Fun Run

So I was on a run today and I had to go poop really bad and it sucked. I was almost done when I pooped my pants. True story. Free GrossOut hot dogs as art tokens is a bad idea when your the cook. they make you poop and not be able to control it.

Reflections

Vita; it's almost empty on a monday morning. It feels so right sitting here and admiring the plants that rest on the little ceiling stoop. Yesterday Sarah and I walked down to the market and selected some herb starts to add to our little collection. It was all misty out and I felt a strong connection to this region.  A while ago I got it in my head that appreciating things like plants and  weather wasn't allowed. I fight with the undeniable urge of letting other peoples opinions and actions effect my perception of what I like and dislike in this world.  Someone told me a neat word for what that process is called last night. Unfortunately I forgot. The pitted youth show went well, it's a blessing to see so many friends at once. But the overall effect of the night left me feeling a bit frantic. I'm glad I don't feel the need to go to shows that often right now. I'm still working on settling into my own. I guess 22 is the most stressful age. Because you don't yet know how to properly incorporate stress into your life. The art show at the northern didn't stress me out that much at all, a big surprise. I am so thankful to have friends and friends of friends that come through so often and strong and show support for the silly things I want to do. Thank you! I love you all. Today I am going to plant some seeds and hopefully go on a run. Talk to you all in blog life soon!

xoxoxoxox

Scoot