It was a special day.

We got out of the theater early, I drank coffee even though I am trying to quit, my mind was moving so fast I didn't know what to do. I went to Last Word, I didn't have money but wanted everything, tearing things off the shelves right and left, thinking I probably only wanted the Guerilla Garding Manualfesto not because I want to read it but just because I really want to do it everwhere. I kept picking things up and putting them down and wishing I had seven hours to suck out their souls. I stopped and read the introduction of Ecofeminism and the Sacred, there was all this terminology in French and it was annoying me terribly, hippies and radicals would complain of this lack of accessibility and who did this author really see as her fanbase. And I realized it was raining and I really wanted to leave my bike somewhere and punish it and I was thinking about this and trying to stuff economics books from the seventies in my arms and then I started towards the front and


(Wait stop I need to tell this story to the song that was playing so play this video either along with my story or listen to the tune til you get it because really it was just like this, even a little like the coloring of the video like really sing it along because you wont get it otherwise.)


:

it was a rainy day in Oly I was prowling LastWord bookstore
and I saw him a kid in a Blitz shirt
looking at VHS tapes near the dooor
Id forgotten my MoonForFun book
trying to makes lists of what to collect
he stepped on my foot i giggled at the sky
and talk of Oral Punk History was next
and then one thing led to another
and well after all this he was gone
but this story i know is not over
oh no this story it will go oo-ooo-on

o-lympia cruuu-uuush bo00-00ok
o-lympia map pro-jeeeect
o-lympia hipster trash kid
not lost in my awkard texxxt

And now Im floating through my packed up house
we're getting ready to mooo-ooove ouuuuuuut
And soon I will be again in the best of plaaa-cess
the O-lympia dream Stump houu-oouuu-se




traaa la la la la la la laaa
traa lala la la laa laaaaa
traaa lalalalala la la
tra lalala lala laaaa........................................................................................................................................................................
:
(end music tune or whatever else)

okay though really i gotta quit gootatatata quit YHGOTTTA I GOTTA


I Love You.

"you're always a day away"

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lesson one:
its time to get into things we've known and also things we've not;

lesson two:
its time to make it count like jack said to rose and never let go like rose said to jack

lesson three:
there will always be a place that is home in your heart.
even if, as i discovered earlier this summer, you can never again go home.

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the house we could have had:

The idea of having this porch is still haunting.

the term 'pizza dog' is blown up way to much.

backyard of our dream house.

front view.

don't forget to check out www.slamwhich.blogspot.com

there is some new shit being posted. 

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I really liked that we had to write letters to ourselves today that we will read six months into our term of service, I really liked telling myself what I think now and asking myself what will happen with all sorts of different things later. What I liked mostly was seeing that most of these predictions or questions about the future, I really do have power how those things turn out. Most of those things, I have agency in. And this is a really exciting thought. Yes I mean I always know this, but I am always living so much in the future in my head that I miss this critical component, that there is a clear bridging between now and then, that there are steps to getting there and those steps are the ones I will be taking all along the way. And I loved this thought so much. And I was filled with happy montages set to deepbellygirlsinging, of my cowboyclomping to success, in all the millions of ways I hope to do right and make good and be happy and grow. And like how Sara was all happy and highIThink and was telling about the episode of Dawsons Creek she was watching and how CJ and Jen just broke up and Pacey and Joey just got back together and there is this relationship just beginning and there is this relationship just ending and both ways its just great in some way its just fine.

I am full of stars.

Wunder Update:

The Wunder Boi has a new strain. The finger like tentacle's have blossomed into an actual hand. Last-night I painted on the most difficult surface yet. I painted the new Wunder. The reason the surface was so difficult (I think) was because the bottom coat was interior latex and the top coat was exterior latex.   

I didn't finish the picture because I accompanied some friends to Grandma's House where a sit down show was well underway. The group I was with apparently didn't want to sit down.  As we walked back to Paxton's we saw this kid running towards us with beer in hand. We inquired what he was running from, pointing to a running crowd behind him he proclaimed loudly "their trying to steal my beer." That's when we charged at his precious beer saying "we're gonna steal your beer tooooooo!" There was genuine fear in his eyes. 

After Paxton's I went to Siti lights. Been getting up early and taking it easy. 

summer of fratboydom continues,
i am getting rid of my texting abilities because they keep saying fucked up things to people at bar close without me knowing how.

i would like to go here.

http://chicago.metromix.com/bars-and-clubs/deal/2-pbr-tallboys-6-wrigleyville/283749/content

August Oh Nine

things i am learning. you dont have to do something just because you Can. you dont have an STD just because you get an Ecard that says so. you dont get to go home when you want even if you make a real good argument for it. you dont have to be completely okay all the time. you dont have to do much for internet class. you dont qualify to be hired as a waitress. you dont have to worry so much about the past and the future because in the PresentMoment everything is just fine. you dont do so well when you continuously drink TallBoys.

update

Been having a hard time not being sleepy lately. Today I slept in and then took a nap. It's been great. Have been in the studio working. It's where I should be now. Meg and I drove around for a while yesterday. Sarah Stacy and I drove for a while today. I cooked some eggs just right today.I whish that the chin on the tall bike was tighter so I could ride it all over. maybe when RUSSLE swift gets back he can help me fix it. I'm getting excited to go out on the road to; in two weeks or less. All you road dogs have got my head spinning. The old "crew up" hasn't happened in forever. Let's hope it's not dead.   I'm not really in a blogging mood; but just wanted to show it's still in my heart. God bless all you fellow bloggers and degenerates.