_______ , inspired by________.

I want a permanent confidence flower,
and a permanent way of telling the difference between needs and wants

and rolling around in my mind:
We ran and danced our way through the streets,
holding hands and laughing at gophers dancing with drunken reminders of youth
standing, watching, another "SA"; she coldly looked into the sprawling mess of us
not a trace of recogition on her face.

I couldn't be a part of the world up here on the hill even if I tried to. This is a new feeling for me.
Is it self-serving to ask myself what is my exact world?
with too much slipping into unfeeling confusion,
simply because of a moment made too hot by the sun,
I am needing to "rethink" and "redo"

mostly, it's the uninspiration of myself in thinking or doing anything outside of the rut i am deep within