Props for Photoshoot

So shooting is gonna happen real soon. we need to figure out how to stage everything but we got hella props. 

butz not rutz

You all have inspired me to shut up and stop feeling sorry for myself,
I have realized that all I really need is a bit of Kate and some red-chested photographic memories.

magoo when are you back?

scoot would you like to do lunch?

are you there, sweet tooth? It's me, toaster.

(press play then look at photo above and manifest it)


from a home of beer and noises,
remember that i love you.
NO rutzzzz!

Spring Days

1) feeding squash to my sister's ducks

2)My megadeath sandwhich

3)Fun at the parade

4) tractor in green house

*large prints of all of these are available for $15 or trade. 

_______ , inspired by________.

I want a permanent confidence flower,
and a permanent way of telling the difference between needs and wants

and rolling around in my mind:
We ran and danced our way through the streets,
holding hands and laughing at gophers dancing with drunken reminders of youth
standing, watching, another "SA"; she coldly looked into the sprawling mess of us
not a trace of recogition on her face.

I couldn't be a part of the world up here on the hill even if I tried to. This is a new feeling for me.
Is it self-serving to ask myself what is my exact world?
with too much slipping into unfeeling confusion,
simply because of a moment made too hot by the sun,
I am needing to "rethink" and "redo"

mostly, it's the uninspiration of myself in thinking or doing anything outside of the rut i am deep within

A square box in the back

caked with old pumpkin skin

apple core and miniature earthquakes and landslides

atop A squash seed two ants danced

in a naive attempt to avoid the schedules of the day

giving each other permission 

for autonomous thinking  

the ant queen picked up on the signal

And they in turn picked up on her's.

one said "go back"

the other said "run away"

dancing's defeat. 

hopes for something that are taking rise in many a voice

praise of seeds and fruits and vegetables and animals that steal

a masking of human forgiveness

it could take a whole eternity trying to remember what we thought we should forget

we have so many privatized interests and authorities

that laughing at the ones that we don't subscribe to 

takes up the bulk of our time

through my eyes he looks

he also looks through yours

and your and yours

don't bother getting the gender right

it's about accessibility

there is no more straight

there is no more narrow

how am I supposed to get in?

how are you supposed to laugh it off?

it always has laughed twice as loud.

maybe parents determine more than we think. 

snap, crackle, scoot

So my eyes feel small today. I wonder about humility and confidence and everything that goes on inbetween. I want to be good but then that good seems bad and I never seem to get a solid footing. painting a landscape, never really done much of that. It's for Becca's birthday. Every year I paint over the same canvas so see can have the same birthday present every year, but they are all different every year. Damn, it's hard to know what i want to feel. 

BUDGET CRISIS

crew alive, I know it. Artswalk is this weekend, can that mean wine and animals and fried things downtown?

miss you.

toast

MIND LOSS GETTING WORSE. CANT GO TO CLASS. ANGRY EMAILS FROM ANGRY BOSS. SHAKY HAND CANT HOLD COFFEE CUP. DITCHIN CAMPUS TO GO TO TARGET FOLKS > IM'A GON' LOSE IT METHINKZZZZ.

I swear by it.

It's kinda cold today and I'm wearing green shorts. I drove up to lacey today just to look out the window and wonder who meg's sidekick is. I have to go to campus to scan some images and I wish i could just do it here cause I have been gone to much today already and it is a 'stay at home day' for a 'stay at home scoot'. breaking dishes on my kitchen floor did wonders for the relationship. I wish i had a rolling paper for this tobacco. "if it's not one thing it's another"-Onias timothy Dixion. 

Me and Oni rode our bikes to priest point park yesterday and stumbled upon an interesting highschool cove party. The ratio of men to women was (men) 3 to (women) 1. They were drinking coores light and on occasion a couple wood go up into a covered spot to M.O. only to return in a matter of seconds. Another group of highschoolers came after the cove party-ers. This group was the mountain bike trick group. Robin came shortly after and we sat drinking Four Loco, smoking, and wondering what exactly everything is building up to.  

Meg Has a sidekick
Meg Has a Big Beer
Meg is scared of trampolines
Nobody needs a Husband

ThiS IS THE PROBLEM you see
Weekend a Whirl of Anniversary-Love Fountain-Kisses Goodness-Gracious Life-on-Wheels----
and yet MEG HAS TO CALM DOWN
because MEG HAS AN ADDICTION
TO CRISIS


Remember Jerry Orbach saying, "This is not a tragedy!"
What is 'This'
Our Baby's going to change the world!


Too much sunshine.

Go back to your playpen Baby.

I think the world is melting.

Meg needs to Calm Down.

needs vs. wants

Scooter needs everyone to check out the website: www.evergreen.edu/events/synenergy 

for Sarelle to see if it looks okay.

Scooter needs to slam dunk hoops with big trampolines underneath.

Scooter needs to get go eat strawberries outside.  

Scooter wants a big beer.

google your name + needs to figure out what you need, too!

tovah needs the soothing touch of the natural world
tovah needs to find her husband
tovah needs a little extra green
tovah needs a brain
tovah needs c-c-courage!
tovah needs to make a supreme sacrifice
tovah needs adjusting
tovah needs visual and auditory versions of the T.O.V.A.
tovah needs to connect more
tovah needs soothing
tovah needs a sidekick
tovah needs a sweet year
tovah needs something saucier next to her
tovah needs to get into contact with Tovah
tovah needs to travel in a suitcase
tovah needs to be Jewish to get the biggest laugh
tovah needs to fill a void left empty by lost love
tovah needs to be difused and discouraged
tovah needs frequent bathroom breaks to avoid accidents in the house
tovah needs to be told
tovah needs to do it through a hole in a sheet
tovah needs your opinion!
tovah needs to have heart surgery

tovah needs spring


Now it's your turn

Garden

So I finally got seeds to plant. I planted some of them today, and now my little cubical of soil is full. I planted kale, miner's lettuce, red sail lettuce, spinach, radishes, and mild mesclun.  I am on the hunt for secret spots around town to toss some seeds, so everyone keep their eyes open. Sarah and I stole some soil from the woods today, it is some of the best I have seen and I filled many large pots with it. Gonna put basil and tomatoes in there in a few minuets. Robin, if you read this and you stopped by the house and I wasn't there I'm sorry. i had to get outside cause it was super sunny. I looked for you down town but to no avail. Anyways, it's nice to have dirt all over my skin and clothes. 

car home now.

Today marks the end of the best week I've had in a while. The week of driving my old subaru. I bought the car in highschool with money I got from working at KFC, now my sister is in highschool and she drives it. it is grey/gray and smells like onions, but in a good way. I have driven to school everyday since I've had it back. Today Becca and i are driving it to ellensburg and that will be the end of that. poor little guy. he was dialed into a good station to: 680 am. the best station I've heard, all old time jazz and country. never played a bummer song. lastnight I left the windows down and the whole thing got soaked so i stuck towels everywhere to cover it up. 

April 15th 2009

Today I was sitting on my porch drinking coffee and squirrel watching. I was thinking that it would be rad if the crew could agree on some larger creative project that we all are into. the crew needs to surface above drunk driving and party crashing. Those are all productive portions of ripping it up, but we needa new context that invites controversy and dialogue in a new way. let's get out the xactoknives and get some cans. 

THIS IS HOW I FEEL TODAY

I am getting spanked by my government job.

I am losing my hair, and gaining weight.

Can we hang out? As a crew again?

Can we have a shot gun beer day? Sunday?

Pizza Party Series...Join the fun!

Part of a new series I'm doing up with props, color photo. needs some willing subjects of various body types. 

Photogram

Today I made some neat color photograms with my friend rose. we used plastic bowls of various colors and lettuce and onions and german gummmmy bears. the onions got warm and stunk up the whole photo studio, which made everything funny and enjoyable. I think that I am addicted to driving the car. i don't want that machine to go away anytime soon. I got to get busy painting a picture of a 32oz miller high life for a still life photograph of a pizza party! Keep up the champ mentality everybody! Shift into full throtle... or eat the crew's dust. 

I turned in my paperwork for graduation, she said "Congratulations"
Were ending our lease at the dugout, which may or may not be because of the diva cat from the pound named Rabbit that shits everywhere just in spite of me,
mostly on my boots or in amelie's bed.
im starting to get nostalgic on the present
im starting to feel myself calming down
and im not quite sure why other than the fact that im feeling the kind of love ive never really known before and above all else it makes me understand that everything is going to be alright
i got in a spat with the diva, i trapped her in the nuts room and i hope she eats easter candy and vomits
i can go anywhere this summer and i can go anywhere after that too
its so exciting, you know?
the world is at my fingertips
i feel like the intro song to Reading Rainbow

list April 11th 2009

#1 Megooo, your just jealous that you are not making sandwiches constantly.

#2 The blog is a big priority for me right now and we need to have a group meeting to bring back some momentum.  

#3 I am trying to set an art show up in the next month or so and need help brainstorming the finer details.

#4 I hope all of you go to the noise show in kenny's basement tonight.

#5 I can't cause I'm gonna go to ellensburg and take pictures!

#6 Spread some Pv's (positive vibes) to a angry person near you! and then get angry to, cause there is a lot to be peeeeeeved at.

#7

here I am, rock me like a hurricane

California Big Tour is over; I'm back at "the job" and have a swollen foot and a couple more freckles. While I was driving through the redwoods -- before I got out and stepped on that fateful nail -- I was listening to New Order, with Kevin, and we were talking about patching up weirdness with people we've loved or liked in the past. I had my sunglasses on and confidence flowers in my hair and the road was wind-y and breezy and everything was going to be okay, in fact better than okay because I was going to make amends with the weirdness. But now I'm at my desk and I have an infection on my foot and I am losing my freckles by the moment, the confidence flowers that chartered my course lay dying on Kevin's dusty dashboard. When do you leave somewhere, see how it's done and have scattered moments of clarity, how do you expand on that when you get back to where you came started? And it seems more and more that something yes actually did start in Olympia, but I'm not entirely sure what it was. I wrote in a postcard to a friend, while at a Ghost House in San Diego, "I am staring into an endless meeting of nostalgic punk and true human fanch, using the lens of the sad, beachy brand of ex-junkie alcoholism. How strange to tour a city with a group of people that either 'left' and presently 'hate' or those that hate themselves for never leaving. What do palm trees and sandy beaches signify, anyway?"

to begin with, i never had the address to send

Sandwiches I Like to Make:

April 7th 2009

So my arm is still kinda messed up and this is messed up cause there is a really fun show at the big room that I want to thrive on tonight. I mean I am not saying that I am not gonna go, I am just saying that I can't move once I get there. This is really a very small problem. I am busy (kinda) working on a underwater seascape to photograph in my bathtub. I'm currently making coral out of skulpeee! I got plastic crabs and wales and fish, I need an underwater camera. Time to get up and stop doing stupid shit that makes my back hurt. No more being scared or mad at silly things, forward. no drama 09.  

So I cant leave Olympia, Ever, Responsibilities, Ugh.

I NEED A FUCKING POP-PUNK SONG OR SOMETHING